testimony

Originally written on 24 July 2022

I’m not sure where to start, but here’s where I’ll begin

To tell you of how Love truly saved me from Sin. 

From a child I was covered in love and many prayers

But that didn’t protect me from the enemy’s snare.

I was raised in the church, but this house was not a home

I rejected the Way because of what church people had shown

Hypocrisy and judgment made me walk away, but little did I know that God the Father would still stay. 

I floated through time, broken and unfulfilled

Avoiding the darkness only light could reveal. 

In my innocence, I was choked by a noose of abuse, sexual trauma, and a struggling mama 

The rope on my neck caused me to lose the Breath of Life

So I walked the earth dead, in darkness and strife. 

I spent many years unconscious, in the dark, 

doing what I wanted

but always missing the mark. 

But life carried on, as only it can do

I became a young woman with ambitious pursuits. 

I went off to college, feeling free like I could fly

Not knowing this was the place I would finally die. 

The year was 2017, in the time where flowers bloomed— I was haunted with gloom because I never healed from life’s tragedies I knew. 

I locked myself in my room and let pills kiss my tongue hoping that I’d leave this life and figure out what was beyond. But something interrupted my plan of escape, the Father in all His love said “Beloved your life is not yours to take.” 

Well why am I still here? I’m tired of living in pain.

“Daughter if you’ll let me,” He said, “I can take it all away.” 

I took Him for His word and gave life another chance, I rededicated my life and let him fill me with His plans. 

I’ll tell you this walk is not easy, but it’s easier with Him. Because Love saved me when I died to myself in exchange for a new life in Him.